All bout my Love life

When it come to love, i will lost when im thinkg bout it.. i already have a great man by my side.. but it is still not enough.. i crave for more. sumtime i keep thingkg bout him, da one dat i used to love.. i believe he is my first love.. no one ever knocked my heart like he did.. he made my heart to beat faster n faster each time i saw him.. but then, he never appreciated me.. n i keep fooling myself.. dat one day, he will come back to me n admit all of his mistake, n ready to love me like i love him.. but.....

but then, i stil have sumone.. the best, the great, da honest guy dat always waiting for me.. the most kind-hearted man i ever met for my entire life.. willing to do everytg for me... cheer me up when i sad, never get mad wif anytg i do.. in fact, i still remeber da night dat we went to dinner, n i got mad at him ... but i just couldn't ,,, he made me laugh at all da time..its been a great 3 years since i knoe him... n he almost grad now... n he is still willing to wait for me... how could i ask for more??

but rite noe, i alredy have sumone and actually be wif sumone.. a great man too... already sacrifice a lot, changed a lot because of me.. he threw all his fren, he sacrifice his salary to buy me eveytg dat i ever wanted, be there when i need him, love me like he love his own self... but then, it is still not enough... we have totally different life, different attitude, n my mom said dat its look like we are not suitable together.. afraid dat i would become sick wif the all attitude differentiation..

wt i do really want???

i never know... im hoping for miracle i believe so... im hoping dat i will have a good guy, who will always BE THERE FOR ME, who will always cheer me up, support me in everytg i do, who will fight for me, who will share da same interest wif me, who will always be patient n never get mad at me.... who will always eat n drink wif me.. will bring me food when im starving, will bring me to da clinic when i get sick, who will always surprise me wif his action... who will love my family like i love them...

am i too selfish?? oh God, plez help me.. plez show me the right way...